Just breathe
How simple is that sentiment and idea? Just breathe. And yet it can be so hard to do sometimes. If living in 2020 is teaching me anything, it is that there is always an opportunity to come back to your breath, check in with yourself, with your body, and to take a minute (or two or 15…..) and just let go. I thought that I was pretty good at letting things go. And then I had a baby. And letting go of the things that were not working for me or for my family became a necessity. There is so much more to learn when it comes to letting things go for me. I think that it’s safe to say that this is a life long journey and opportunity to learn, to get curious, and practice being non-judgmental. Every time I feel like I’ve mastered something I am reminded that this is just the beginning. It seems that it is pretty normal to embrace that fact that the older we get the less we really, truly know which seems kind of backwards but doesn’t life feel backwards sometimes? Some of the things that I have been learning to let go of this year so far:
Letting go of what I want to be able to do when it comes to moving my body and staying active, and being more patient with the healing process. After getting into a car accident right before everything was shut down due to Covid-19, I have been trying to let go of wanting to do all of the things that were easier and less painful to do before getting injured. It kind of reminds me of that struggling to be patient with healing and recovering from child birth season that I went through not so long ago.
Letting go of the ideal that I had for raising a child who absolutely adores veggies and all things healthy. Or who just adores eating all of the time
Letting go of not being able to control when I work (my other job, being a seamstress for film and theatre in the costume department)
Letting go of the guilt that I sometimes feel for not wanting to be a stay-at-home parent and missing work
Letting go of playing the (lame) comparison game that I always lose at (does anyone ever win this game?)
Letting go of what I thought motherhood/adulthood/life was going to be like
So many things to let go of, and quite honestly things that I could (and probably will) write other blog posts about in the near future.
What are you struggling to let go of in the season? What would letting go fully look like and feel like to you? I’d love to hear from you. Here’s to letting go of things over and over and over, and then finding more and new things to let go of. Let’s lighter our loads and just breathe. In and out, in and out. Deeply in and out
